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Back to reality

Hey everyone!

I feel better than when I wrote a few times ago. There is not much snow left now, spring is coming! It feels great to be able to be outside without hurting… haha :)
The only downside with spring are my allergies. I’m allergic to the trees here, so yeah… But it’s all good! I have medicine :)

I’ve been practicing my driving skills, it is so much fun to drive!! I love it! That is another reason to why I’m happier :)

Also, we don’t have as much in school now, or well, only four big tests in two weeks. Plus exams that you can’t study for. Ehem, you know, it’s crazy. But I believe that you have to bring happiness to everything you do, you can’t expect happiness to find you, because then you will never be happy, unfortunately. I want to be happy, and I want to find my purpose in life! I just have to bring my A-game and my passion into everything I do, and I will find it :)

Oh, and this Friday, I had an Englishman say to me that I will be a manager one day! He said he saw leadership skills in me, and that I would be a great manager :) I was so happy when he said that!! I felt like everything I work for is paying off, and that other people can see my personality showing through :) You know, this is quite big, because just last year, I was in a class where nobody liked me, and I couldn’t be myself. It was really horrible. A whole day could go by without me saying anything, except for in class of course. But now, I’ve found great friends, who think like me, and who have the same values as me, mostly :) I’m thankful for my friends, and for my teachers who put up with me! Haha :) (Not that I’m a bad student…)

Anyway, when I say “back to reality”, I mean that I HAVE to start eating better. Healthier. It’s just a MUST. I feel better, so why not? I work out, so that’s not a problem, but my diet. It’s a mess right now :/ It’s really hard when my parents buy foods that aren’t good for me. Like candy and stuff like that. 

Over all, I’m actually pretty happy! I’m listening to Icona POP on Spotify, I drove today, and I feel great about my two tests this week :) I think I’m going to survive ;) 

Hope you are feeling great and awesome!

Be strong! Love <3 

Dear Motivation: Please come back!

Hello all beautiful people in the world!

I’m actually feeling pretty good, I am still trying to figure out how to not live in a “half-lived-life”, if you can call it that :) 
I am noticing how grateful I am for all people in my life, not only the AWESOME ones, but also the ones who get me annoyed. Not that I feel grateful in that particular moment, but afterwords, when I didn’t yell at them, or learnt something about THEM, and sometimes myself, I can feel pretty grateful. I am happy for the fact that I am graceful, not being rude to anyone who I think deserves it. 

Of course, I need to have some sort of limit of how much bull sh** I can take, but I am still figuring that out.

Now, to the topic of today!

Motivation: I have not been feeling it for a while, as I wrote in my last post. I HAD found it at the beginning of this week, but this thursday, I got sick. AND had a minor injury, my leg was acting out. SO, of course, as the responsible girl that I am, I do not work out when I am sick and have a fever! ;) Whatever anyone says to you. do not work out when you are sick. Just rest!!

Anyway. I have also been feeling stressed about school, even though we get our spring break in a few days. We have a lot going on, as usual, and I just don’t want to get depressed every time there is something tough in school. Now, I’m really writing over the top, I don’t actually get depressed, but I think there’s this perfectionist part of me that won’t let go. Yeah. But I’ll try to focus on the awesome and amazing things in my life! Like, I’m going to PARIS soon! YAY! :) 

So motivation: Why is it so hard to just be there? I love you, but you aren’t really there when I need ya. 

On another note: I am really in to spiritual things right now, trying to focus on good things, like my friends and the fact that I have a strong body, quite sexy, which can do a lot of things ;) Thanks! :)

Life, you’re awesome, but sometimes it gets a little bit rough. Please be gentle. Love, Kajsa.

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